I’m Not This Layer of Skin

Through substance and through witchery,

Is this all the young man sees?

Ignores her silenced plea,

To focus on her beauty.

She’s dead and useless now,

And her stories untold to the world,

No longer sees the four grey walls,

Or the shadows through a tiny door.

 

Engraved in a wooden boat,

With stone is her name she wrote,

But he just looks above her throat,

And her face is all he cares about.

 

You might look but you don’t see me,

I’m not this layer of skin.

You might touch but you can’t feel me,

I’m not this layer of skin.

I’m stored within, stored within,

I’m stored within my skin.

 

Not the first, won’t be the last,

He hasn’t noticed he’s looked past,

That this sweet breath is now her last,

It’s a curse that Mother Nature cast.

Oh what a story, what romance!

He loves her with just one glace,

Why is it this feeble stance ,

Is seen throughout the greatest arts?

 

You might look but you don’t see me,

I’m not this layer of skin.

You might look but you can’t feel me,

I’m not this layer of skin.

I’m stored within, stored within,

I'm stored within my skin.

 

This is our lot I’m told,

A bleak future for me unfolds,

As the blood running through my veins turns cold,

I think of how I’ve already grown.

My skin has thickened and my face is still,

But I’m woman and all I do is feel,

Oh where’s that child she was so pure?

I can’t find her in me anymore.

I want to love but it’s just so hard,

To pull this façade apart,

I miss her and it makes me cry,

And I see it in my mothers’ eyes.

 

She sees me as when I was born,

The love she holds has never worn,

Consistent and its never slack,

And the weight of it would break your back.

I’m not half the woman that she’s always been,

But I am her and she was me,

She feels my pain, it’s hers she sees,

And her knowing eyes watch over me.

 

You might look but you don’t see me,

I’m not this layer of skin.

You might touch but you can’t feel me,

I’m not this layer of skin.

I’m stored within, stored within,

I’m stored within my skin.

 

I’m stored within my skin.

Would You Do It Again

If you saw the pain of my heart on my face 

would you do it again?

Blood seeps through my skin,

through the hole of every inch you tore away

Would you do it the same or a different way?

And my bones twisted and you stare as I blister in pain,

Eyes flicker to a still, I go cold, turn pale.

Would you do it again

Would you do it again

Would you do it the same or a different way

If the pain was scarred on my face

Not in my chest 

Hidden away?

You can carry on with your silly games

It's not on my face, it must be Ok

Would you do it again

Would you do it again

You can't see the scars of my heavy heart

It's not on my face, it must be ok.

Would you do it again

Would you do it again

If you saw the pain of my heart on my face you wouldn't do it again 

You wouldn't do it again

Blood would seep through my skin through the hole of every inch you tore away 

Would you do it the same or a different way

And my bones twisted and you stared as I blistered in pain

Eyes flicker to a still, I go cold, turn pale

Would you do it again 

Would you do it again 

Would you do it the same or a different way 

if the pain was scarred on my face 

Not in my chest, hidden away.

But it's in my chest, it's hidden away.

The Rare One

Treat me bad, or treat me good

If I was to leave I already would

Your needy eyes control my mind

They're so secure, they're so kind

My lips shake

My knees tremble

My heart breaks

My  head falls.

Could we last? I think we will

Our hearts are strong, our love is still.

We always laugh, no reason why.

I see your scars, each time I cry

And you ache, give me kisses

I watch your face, I never miss

Your embrace, I want this

So treat me bad, or treat me good

If I was to leave I already would

Your needy eyes control my mind

They're so secure, they're so kind

My lips shake

My knees tremble

My heart breaks

My  head falls.

You melt my heart, melt my mind

Thinking of the first time

You grabbed my waist, felt my thighs

The Savages

If you had the choice would you let it lie,

Keep your soul or rather die

Than let your natural instincts cry

It defeats the body it defeats the mind

 

And you're one more sleep away from lazy

One more breakdown away from crazy

One more job lost from being useless

Your silence, your stare, your words confuse us

We're confused, and you're confused too.

It's a choice that some have had to make

All decisions sound and fake

Are measured against your earthly stake

With evolution it deliberates

And you're one more tear away from sadness

One more note away from madness

One more lyric from being scary

But those horror stories they never scared me

I will choose

if I lose to you

You know that this is where it ends

From here on your soul descends

Into the depth of where your life began

Silent and still, there's no thoughts again

Once a place so innocent

Now it holds a deathly scent

One that lingers through your spine

It's almost sacred definitely divine

Have I confused you?

With my truth

True say

True words

True way

It hurts

Endless Soul

See it through to your endless soul

In the end there's a hole

Teach me your ways

Teach me your ways

Lost in the haze of your heart so cold

Battle fields are in your head

Guns you hear, your sense they shred

Teach me your ways

Teach me your ways

How you turned it off under your vest

This constant beating in your chest

Louder Louder

Louder and louder echoes

Higher higher

Higher and higher you throw

My heart

There she goes that silly girl

For him she'll dance and twirl

She's in a haze

She's in a haze

Can't see past his sinister ways

Walk away oh walk away

Pulls you in, you're closer each day

To teach you his ways, teach you his ways

Can't escape, he's in your brain

Louder, louder

Louder and louder echoes

Higher higher

Higher and higher you throw

My heart

But you lost her you silly boy

Once again you let it destroy

Your happy days

Your happy days

When you dragged her with strings like a puppet toy

Louder Louder

Louder and louder echoes

Higher higher

Higher and higher you throw

My heart

And You Sin

You stole a few years

Everything I did I did with you in mind

You still make me cry

Didn't seem to think of you in a long time

Those eyes

They cared for a time

Said I didn't mind

What a silly child

I trIed to test the heart

I made a good start

But it catches up

And you sin

And you sin

And you sin 

Because I am weak for you

And you win

And you win

And you win 

Because I am weak for you

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Chorus repeated

I still write

I still write

I still write 

And you are deep in my thoughts

I still sing

I still sing

I still sing

And you're in the heart of my voice

Not Her Own

 

She's part of the English Rose

Part of the English Rose

She's part of the English Rose

But there's diamonds in her eyes

They shape her life

She's been given a role

She's been given a role

She's been given a role

She's been fighting her whole life

She has fire in her eyes

She has these choices 

They're not her own

She'll break the rules now she's grown

They had a plan

She couldn't stand

Shamed her in the end

They won't win again 

She makes too much noise

She makes too much noise

She makes too  much noise

She's proud of her voice

She has these choices

They're not her own

She'll break the rules now she's grown